Wednesday, June 10, 2015

it has been 13 days so far

Tomorrow is the 14th day.  I will double my dosage then.  The feeling I had of something changing is gone.  I feel like I did before, sleepy a lot and last night I couldn't sleep till about 1 am.  I kept tossing and turning and being OCD again.  My sex drive is still in neutral still.

I stopped having brain freeze with alcohol, I had slowed down a lot on it, but last night I had a little more than usual, I felt nothing, no buzz, nothing at all.  That was one of the reasons I kept drinking, I didn't feel any difference.  Only thing is, I couldn't sleep, and was so tired.

I am becoming more irritable and impatient, with myself and with others.  My impatience with things is bad too.  I don't take the time to put my glasses on, and just guess on which knob turns which burner on.  I get mad when I can't see the buttons for the radio in the car,so I poke everything.

Yesterday I forgot which button locks the car, I pushed the wrong one and set off the panic alarm. UGH!  I did that because I didn't have the patience to look at the key, so I pressed a button I thought was it.  I was just guessing.  At times I feel like throwing whatever it is I am trying to figure out.
I can't focus. I feel like my brain just refuses to assimilate anything.  I hope raising the dosage helps.
I am going to go to bed and try to sleep.  I was doing a bit better, now not so sure.

I have been off coffee since I started the medicine.  I had half a cup today, just because it tastes good.  It didn't do anything bad to me, or anything good either.



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