2016 End year Update

Update..

I will write more later.

I have been on Lamictal all this time. I am taking half a pill still, even though the doctor said I could take a whole one. I want to learn to cope with the remnants of the symptoms. I don’t want to take more meds than necessary.

She has tried giving me Gabapentin, it was not good. I also was on Trazadone to help me sleep. Nope.. not good either. The first night I thought I was having an allergic reaction. My nose got so stuffy, my sinuses were closing up. I panicked, but didn’t run to the hospital. It helped me sleep, yes, but the sinus issue was bad. I took half the doze, still, not good but I could sleep. The issue was I was so constipated and gaining weight fast. I talked to the doctor and stopped taking it.

I seem to have weird reactions to meds. My ADHD is to blame; the doctor has pointed that out as well.

So far I feel normal, which seems bad but isn’t. Last December my regular doctor prescribed Vitamin D3 at 50,000 units a week. She said I had next to none. I saw that in the lab results. She said lack of it causes weakness in bones, which explains my broken and missing teeth. She said I have very fragile bones and I need it NOW. It also seems to affect the way our bodies absorb nutrients and dispose of waste.

As a result, I lost like 15 lbs, and I have energy now. Not wired, but I can function now! I can work more hours, instead of fizzling out at 3 hours and giving up at 4. Now I can work 6 hours and keep up. I now have one job in the morning, 3 hours as an Instructional assistant, and come home. I eat lunch and interpret for a few hours in the evening. I am stressed to the max, a little depressed. But this time I am struggling with financial issues badly. I sometimes feel like I am ready to run away screaming. But I am handling it very well, considering.

My thought pattern is still no pattern at all. I am still disorganized in my head. I am trying to write lists, but then forget to look at said lists. At least I can see more clearly now.

Taking medicine makes me feel more normal, so sometimes I wonder if the medicine is working. But isn’t that what it is supposed to do; make me feel normal?